List
of False Pathways through programming because
of traumatic events/betrayal:
1. Recorder, Replay
and Programming spirits of false pathways.
2. Being anxious on a daily basis - meaning
you cannot be still and your mind is always
thinking. It is hard for you to read your
bible because of your list. When you sit down
to rest, your legs or hands will not be still.
3. Shutting down emotionally - you have no
energy or interest.
4. Eating out of stress or habit rather than
hunger or not eating at all when under stress.
Sometimes not eating at all for self-punishment
- anorexia or other eating disorders.
5. Withdrawing, isolating withdraw or passive
to avoid being hurt by others.
6. Stuck in long-time grief and cannot seem
to get out of grief.
7. Self-pity - stuck in what others have
done to you - you are living in the past.
You see God does not really care or love you.
8. Overwhelming feelings of hopelessness.
9. Overvhelming feelings of hopelessness.
10. You have to volunteer in everything to
feel important to God. If you are not doing
something for God, then you feel as though
you are not meeting his expectations.
11. Have high expectations on others to meet
your need and others fail you and so there
is deep hurt. Could be a parent(s), friend,
etc.
12. performance, perfection, and
drivenness:
12a. To receive love and acceptance from others
- fear of being rejected by others or fear
of man so you are in performance to perfection
and if you are not perfect, you self-curse,
self-accusation, maybe self-punishment, or
self-torment towards yourself with negative
conversations, that you could do better or
a negative conversation from someone in your
past that you will never be successful, etc.
12b. Driven to help others to meet a void
in your life to feel good about self and not
take care of self. You get hurt because others
don't seem to receive from you or understand
your intentions and so others retaliate against
you.
12c. You have a problem receiving praises
from others when you do something good. You
have a negative conversations in your head
telling you that you could have done this
better or you don't deserve praise from others.
13. Obsessive compulsive behaviors, example:
you are driven to go to the store to buy to
feel better, you have to read so much of the
word a day or you self-accuse yourself or
you cannot buy one but always buy two or three
of the same, etc.
14. You have distrust of others or distrust
of opposite sex, race or culture,
15. You have fear of abandonment.
16. fear of being alone and so involved in
everything to not feel the loneliness and
will avoid going to an empty home.
17. Your are a daydreamer, have fairytale
mind set as a way of escape from pain while
growing up.
18. You battle with depression.
19. You have an inability to handle stress
and have problems with anxiety,
20. You have problems with shame and guilt
feelings and don't know why,
21. You don't accept self and have self rejection
and will reject others first before they reject
you.
22. You have fear of being vulnerable.
23. You have a hard time having conversations
with others out of fear of being rejected.
24. You have problems with phobias and panic
disorders and avoid triggers such as tight
places or leaving your home, etc.
25. You battle with insomnia almost every
night. You cannot get your mind to stop,
26. You cannot be still but always moving
or doing something or you feel guilty,
28. You have to control your environment
or you feel you are loosing control.
29. You find yourself manipuling others unintentionally
or intentionally to be in control.
30. you sometimes put guilt on others to
do what you need them to do because you feel
that is the only way you can keep them from
making bad decisions.
31. You sometimes intimidate others to get
your way or because you feel you are right.
32. You feel you have to have possessions
to feel important like the biggest house on
your block, etc.
33. You have nightmares, flashbacks of old
memories that torment you in the past, etc.
34. When you hear the Lord, you have to figure
it out or reason it out before you will step
out.
35. You have a hard time hearing from the
Lord.
36. Paranoia or distrust of others, organizations,
churches, etc.,
37. You do self infliction to stop the emotional
pain.
38. You are not able to focus at your job,
or not able to stay awake in church or not
able to read your word without your mind wondering.
39. You are concerned what people think about
you. It is important that they like you.
40. It is hard for you to ask for help because
of fear others will reject you or see you
weak.
41. You blames others for his or her problems.
(Unemployment, family quarrels everything
is "your fault."
42. Hypersensitivity. (Easily upset by annoyances
that are a part of daily life, such as being
asked to work overtime, criticism of any kind,
being asked to help with chores or child care.)
43. You are very sensitive to sounds.
44. You verbal abuse others and you hate
it.
45. You feel like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
personality. (Sudden mood swings and unpredictable
behavior - one minute loving, the next minute
angry and punitive.)
46. Cruelty to animals and children, (Insensitive
to their pain and suffering, may tease and/or
hurt children and pets.)
47. Past history of battering. (Has hit others
but has a list of excuses for having been
"pushed over the edge.")
48. Breaking or striking objects. (Breaks
your possessions, throws objects near or at
you or your children.)
49. You stay in bitterness to stay pissed
off to not be vulnerable to the abuser like
a dad.
50. Are you attracted to people who just
aren't good for you.
51. Are you in a painful relationship and
can't leave and take the verbal abuse becuase
you feel you deserve it or because of fear
what others will say if you leave or fear
of being alone.
52. It is hard for you to put healthy boundaries
around yourself without guilt.
53. If when excluded, you feel jealous.
54. When good things happen to others, you
feel that God does not love you or you feel
invisible from God.
55. It is hard to trust God because of past
abuse and you say "where was Go if he
loved me. Why did he allow this to happen
to me?"
56. You are passive and don't know why. It
is hard for you to get motivated and you will
wait the last minute to get something done.
57. You are passive in the home and allow
the other parent or mother to do all the discipline.
58. You have to have a job to feel important.
59. When you look in the mirror, you don't
like what you see. Or you don't like something
about your body.
60. You could never live up to your parents
expectations no matter what you did for them.
2. The Power of Others
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